The cost of being a Christian

I am writing this post for myself because it relates to my own struggles.  It will be a happy coincidence if it applies to anyone else, but I suspect it may, as we’re not really all that different. One of my favorite theologians is Dietrich Bonhoeffer, a relatively famous Christian commonly known for his tangential […]

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Couples counseling with God

In a cozy doctor’s office with plush couches and rich mahogany bookshelves Holy Spirit:    Thank you for taking the time to meet with us, David. Me:    Sure, I guess. This is weird. Holy Spirit:    What do you mean? Me:    This. I’m in a session with you as counselor – clever, by the way – and […]

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Wrestling

I’ve decided to be real with God. I’ve been open and honest about my thoughts and feelings in general, but I haven’t directed them to God. I’ve given them to God; I’ve talked about them to God; but I haven’t talked to God about them. So now I am, in total honesty, like a psalm, […]

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My spiritual autobiography

The following is a brief autobiography, as submitted as my first paper for a class I am taking at Asbury Theological Seminary: “Where there is no prophetic vision the people cast off restraint [or ‘the people are discouraged’], but blessed is he who keeps the law.” So states Proverbs 29:18 in the English Standard Version, […]

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Möbius

This is a humbling place to be Where I’m stripped of all pretensions Even the self-fabricated ones I use to placate myself Caught between confusion, chaos and nihilism Bitterness feels like it’s boring Numb beyond numb, but that’s only on the surface I have no hopes left but You, and by that I mean I’m […]

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God is good?

Sometimes I think I’m insane for being a Christian. Time and again I fall for the devil’s oldest temptation: God is holding out on you. I believe it; I grab control of my life back from God; I do something that I think will make me happy; then I watch as my life implodes in […]

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Calloused dragon heart

Ice impulse fire Can you feel any more? Is there bone for skin beneath the breath of this facade? Where is the purchase beyond mirror and smoke? Grace, soiled in fragmentation Sprout through this caked earth And blossom.

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