Möbius

This is a humbling place to be Where I’m stripped of all pretensions Even the self-fabricated ones I use to placate myself Caught between confusion, chaos and nihilism Bitterness feels like it’s boring Numb beyond numb, but that’s only on the surface I have no hopes left but You, and by that I mean I’m […]

Calloused dragon heart

Ice impulse fire Can you feel any more? Is there bone for skin beneath the breath of this facade? Where is the purchase beyond mirror and smoke? Grace, soiled in fragmentation Sprout through this caked earth And blossom.

Idol heart

Oh, God, how easily I forget… None of this. Nothing. Nothing. Is about me. It’s all. Every last thing. About You. May I diminish. So You may be More.

Acceptance

I’m an idolator at the foot of the Altar to My Idealized Vision of Myself. I’m a Pharisee and this is my Law. Wrapped up in mostly-truths and mostly-pure motivations for sanctification. I surely know my identity, but I’ve confused that with knowing who the man I’m supposed to be is. But I don’t, and […]

Just You and me

Well, God. Here we are. One of those times when I feel completely alone, so You’re all I have. Ironic of course because You’re ever all I have deep down beneath and through all else, but I’m easily distracted. Spiritual ADD, I guess. You know I love You. You know we have so much to […]

Wrestling with God in the dock

God, I admit I want to put You on trial. I want to hold You accountable for all evil, injustice, and pain. I guess it’s because I’ve bought into the lie that You aren’t actually Good, and if someone doesn’t hold You accountable – even some insignificant creature You made – then who will? I […]

Help my unbelief

Lord, I love You. Heal my hatred of You.