Where fear, panic and despair die

Each of us lives in two realities. One reality is the external world in which we interact with each other, where we work, we go to school, and where objective things happen to us: we get a new job, babies are born, loved ones die, and so on. The other reality is our internal thought […]

Overcoming my demon: fear

There isn’t much I’ve been unwilling to lay bare about myself in the hopes of helping others who may be experiencing similar situations or issues. One such issue I’ve written a good deal about is my lifelong struggle with panic and depression. It’s not a topic I enjoy writing or talking about because of how […]

Hello, despair, my old friend…

So far, 2017 hasn’t been very kind to my health. I caught the flu for the first time in at least two decades over the weekend, and unlike yours truly, it doesn’t seem to be something that gets better with age. I sent my daughter to stay with her mom a few days early so […]

When I’m not even sure how to live

I’m an expert at over-analyzing things, especially when it comes to myself. I’ll pick apart in detail how I reacted in situations in order to determine if I responded in the most ideal ways. I’ll beat myself up over and over again regarding mistakes I know I’ve made and over things that may have not […]

When Christmas isn’t very merry

Emotions are strange. We all experience them at different levels of intensity. I’m sure that in a way our experience of each is slightly unique from one another, too. Sometimes we have a decent degree of control over how we feel while at other times we’re seemingly helpless. As is the case with many holidays, […]

The humbling and the emptying

Communication stinks, doesn’t it? How many problems are simply caused by either the inability of one person to accurately explain something to another or the other person’s inability to fully understand what the first person was trying to say? Or both? One of the frustrating things about words is that they are limited. We only […]

For you, when you have no hope

No empty platitudes. I’m sick of them. Some cliched affirmations, because they sometimes help. I don’t know what it’s like to be you. I don’t know. What it’s like. To be you. I do know what it’s like to be me. Maybe. I know what it’s like to ask yourself, “What’s the point of going […]