Why hope matters

Depression comes in many varieties. There’s the subtle type that most of us deal with off and on, a slight melancholy that hits us throughout the day for different reasons and passes quickly. There’s the all-consuming experience of panic, which can make you absolutely desperate and tempt you to make drastic choices for any kind […]

Only one hope

I stopped writing in this space months ago to focus on putting together a book that has been incredibly slow going. I haven’t given up on the book, but my progress is depressing to me. It’s easier to think of jotting down my thoughts within the confines of several hundred words here than in the […]

Love lost and numb

The relationship I’ve been in for the last few months ended the other day. It’s been a bit on-again, off-again as hinted at in other posts of mine over that time frame. For those of you who know me well, the timing is somewhat ironic, as my rock-bottom moment in life came around 10 years […]

Loneliness (and being human)

*sigh* Well, I’m lonely again. Those of us who have been single for any significant period of time can relate, as can a lot of us who are in or have been in challenging relationships. Loneliness is a kind of depression, or it’s at least closely connected. There is a sense of hopelessness and despair […]

How to find peace

Like any good sermon, this post is written more for myself than anyone else. I’ve been pretty miserable for a good portion of my life. From panic attacks and depression as a young boy to inheriting the worldview of a family that doesn’t necessarily always look on the bright side, my predisposition has been […]

Where fear, panic and despair die

Each of us lives in two realities. One reality is the external world in which we interact with each other, where we work, we go to school, and where objective things happen to us: we get a new job, babies are born, loved ones die, and so on. The other reality is our internal thought […]

Overcoming my demon: fear

There isn’t much I’ve been unwilling to lay bare about myself in the hopes of helping others who may be experiencing similar situations or issues. One such issue I’ve written a good deal about is my lifelong struggle with panic and depression. It’s not a topic I enjoy writing or talking about because of how […]