When Christmas isn’t very merry

Emotions are strange. We all experience them at different levels of intensity. I’m sure that in a way our experience of each is slightly unique from one another, too. Sometimes we have a decent degree of control over how we feel while at other times we’re seemingly helpless. As is the case with many holidays, […]

The silent depression

Sometimes when you think you’re an expert on a subject, you experience a humbling moment when you realize there’s far more to learn. I’ve fought with severe anxiety and panic attacks since I was a seven-year-old boy. I thought it was safe to assume that if there was one topic I could be considered a master on […]

Struggling with Easter

Recently, Easter has become a difficult time for me. Identifying God’s love through the events of Holy Week and Easter is a challenge for me. Finding God’s love and receiving it are things I’m not all that gifted at in general, though I have had small numbers of breakthroughs over the past several years. A […]

For you, when you have no hope

No empty platitudes. I’m sick of them. Some cliched affirmations, because they sometimes help. I don’t know what it’s like to be you. I don’t know. What it’s like. To be you. I do know what it’s like to be me. Maybe. I know what it’s like to ask yourself, “What’s the point of going […]

Loneliness and despair

I confess: sometimes I feel like punching Joel Osteen right in the face. It’s not personal. I kind of like the dude despite myself, sincere theological differences and personal style aside. But my angst has to do with those theological differences and that incessant smiling. Osteen’s is a Christian theology of prosperity (more or less) […]

The Power of Darkness

***Note: it’s likely important for me to emphasize the limits of my anger to adult interpersonal relationships and the limits of my actions to verbal comments therein. That is the full extent of my thoughts and actions, and everything written here is only understood within this context, and nothing more*** I’ve been airing some of […]