Silence

Timelessness without commodity Seasons without change or night or day. Tears and breath pass intermittent Stillness, warm as a lover’s kiss. Who am I when you pass from memory When my days fade into mist? When I’m buried, long forgotten, Who will know I’ve gone away? Stone and etching rendered faceless And the stars no […]

How to find peace

Like any good sermon, this post is written more for myself than anyone else. I’ve been pretty miserable for a good portion of my life. From panic attacks and depression as a young boy to inheriting the worldview of a family that doesn’t necessarily always look on the bright side, my predisposition has been […]

Where fear, panic and despair die

Each of us lives in two realities. One reality is the external world in which we interact with each other, where we work, we go to school, and where objective things happen to us: we get a new job, babies are born, loved ones die, and so on. The other reality is our internal thought […]

Overcoming my demon: fear

There isn’t much I’ve been unwilling to lay bare about myself in the hopes of helping others who may be experiencing similar situations or issues. One such issue I’ve written a good deal about is my lifelong struggle with panic and depression. It’s not a topic I enjoy writing or talking about because of how […]

What the American Church needs to hear

As I sometimes do when I feel despair and confused, I headed to St. Simons Island today. I go there to commune with God and connect with one of my long-dead spiritual mentors, John Wesley. St. Simons is, along with Savannah, the only place in America where the Wesley brothers stepped foot. John convinced his […]

Hello, despair, my old friend…

So far, 2017 hasn’t been very kind to my health. I caught the flu for the first time in at least two decades over the weekend, and unlike yours truly, it doesn’t seem to be something that gets better with age. I sent my daughter to stay with her mom a few days early so […]

The story of who I am

My grandfathers As I’ve sought to understand myself and heal from the particular broken places within me, I’ve learned that the journey to knowing myself doesn’t stop with me. Family accounts for far more than our genetic mixture. It also of course establishes the way we perceive ourselves and the world via the environment in […]